ambiguous

Its been a whole semester since I've been written in this. The semester flew blew, lots of memories were made, good ones as well as bad ones. I've recently started talking to someone whose made me want to do more with my life.

I notice that the more we talk, the more and more I want to do so I can share that with her.
Recently though we've gotten more and more close, and I feel like shes suddenly starting to pull away.

I don't know how to feel, I understand her point of view but I don't want to lose everything we've built up to now.

She's an amazing person, and without a doubt I know its my insecurities that are most likely making me see more into this situation than there really is.



all I know is, I have to complete this list of goals for myself

Complete a summer EMT program
volunteer at a Hospital
work as a patient transporter 


time will tell what happens with me and her, but I won't let go

Week one

Finally back at school and things have been a little hectic. I'm still not sure what to expect this semester, the grade break down for the classes are pretty bad and everything is heavily weighed. Nothing to do but to go all out on them.

Break

Haven't updated this in awhile, mainly because I'm on break. Its a new year and I'm very motivated for this upcoming year.

I'm aiming for a 4.0 and I'm trying to be involved in as much stuff as I can. I realized that theres a bunch of classes I have to now that I looked at the required ones for UIC (my 1# choice) I'm not too sure how thats going to work out but I'm hoping for the best. Just one more week til I go back, I'm definitely going to miss home.

Fallen behind

The more I look into it, the more I realize how behind I am. By this stage people have already done summer research and taken a majority of the pre-reqs for med school.

I knew I was behind but coming to face what I have to do is a little daunting. I know that I have at least a year of school post-graduation until I can even take the MCAT and begin applying to med schools.
                        

                              I just know that when I walk across that stage I'll feel disappointed...

I wish I could have done things differently, I've gotten too comfortable thinking that this life in college was going to be the rest of my life or something. I regret not putting more effort into my chem and bio classes.. I realize that I can pity myself all I want but theres nothing to do but to move on from where I am.

"There are three types of people in this world, those who watch things happen, those who wonder what happened and those who make things happen."






Funny that I've always wanted to make sure that I wouldn't be the first two,

                  All thats left to do is toughen up, deal with my situation, and do the best I can to get selected.
 

No more stagnation

Embarkment

It's been a long time since I've made a blog. I decided to start this one after realizing that I'm going to need some way to vent as I go through the process of becoming a doctor. I'll randomly say whats on my mind and tell you guys about my journey.

Right off the bat I'm going to admit that my name and the names of other people are going to be altered. maybe when I finally make it I'll let you guys know who I am if you're still following me.

until then,

I'll like just say that my name is Nave, it's nice to meet you guys, and It's going to be a long journey.